First of all - it seems my books have been 're-ranked' at Amazon. I'm still not happy with Amazon's vague explanation, though, and I also found out that Powell's is pretty cool. So, time for a change, I think!
In fact, that's the theme for this year. Sorry I've been quiet. I've been having big paradigm shifts. They mostly involve sitting in the sunshine, but, you know, still waters run deep and all.
I've barely been writing. My book of short stories got turned down by Black Lace. I was asked to make substantial changes and didn't want to, so now I am free of deadlines and floating in the breeze! Later, I hope to release the book elsewhere, but more on that as it transpires.
In the meantime, I've been not-thinking and listening hard. Waiting to see which way life is going to go. For the past few years I worked - well, hard for me! - at writing, and now it's time to pause and lift my head and look around.
Damn, I'm meandering here, aren't I?
Years and years ago I walked round my mother's house. I dreamed my future, all the things I wanted. Somehow, one by one, all those things have appeared. Boyf was a smiling blur until I met him. My book was a haze until I wrote it. The garden was a green tumbling mess - oh, and it really is in real life too. Sometimes it all seems like a game and I want to laugh.
I dreamed the particular colour of my writing room and the cane chair I sit in outside. Now I want to learn to see the things that are real. Sometimes the lupin leaves in dreams are easier to see than the ones right in front of you. I cannot see what flowers are at my feet
So, for a while, I'll be breathing, writing maybe a very little, and seeing where the dreams go. xxx